fact: every year, about half of the years ones retain

i am soooooo supposed to be studying. more like cheong-ing ah.

i'll admit something. I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED READING TESS.

and my promos is in like what? 2 weeks time? keep telling myself that retaining is NOT an option. but at this rate.. my only options will be green form or pink form. and i actually want to be a councillor.

hais. we shall see.......

overseas CIP!

hahaha i dont know whats wrong with me. i just cant seem to consistently update my blog.. if killing was legal, odah would have killed me a long time ago.. hehe soon k odah. i'll update my facebook soon. but i didnt break my promise.. cause I STILL HAVE NOT BOUGHT MY OWN SCHOOL SHOES YET. =D so for netball, i wear my mom's running shoes. for other days i wear my dad's sneakers. and i dont understand how come i can fit into both nicely. cause my dad's feet are like 2 sizes bigger than my mom's. and mine are supposed to be 1 size bigger than my mom's.. whatever la ah.. as long as i have shoes to wear to school.

k back to my point. which is supposed to be my overseas CIP trip, to indonesia. tomorrow. til 20th. not compulsary, only about 20 going. but dont ask me why i signed up for it cause im too depressed to answer the truth. dont get me wrong, im sincerely ok with the CIP part. its just that certain things, or people, are making me regret this decision BIG TIME. its ok, i'll look at the bright side. if im in indon, i wont be at home, eating like a pig, for one whole week. =) so anyway, tmr i have to be at Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal by 7.50am.. hopefully my parents can send me ah.

ok now.. some things we will do.. we're going to reforest mangroves, teach the students there English, help to paint a local school and help to build roads! the building roads part really scares me. but i cant wait for the English lessons and painting activity! oh and im prepared to come home 5 shades darker. hahaha.. my family wants me to buy loads of the crispy sotong thing. insyaAllah i'll buy k.. haiss.. i dont usually get home sick but i think this time, i will really really miss home. again, its not about where i am, its about who i'm with. haish..

nvm hopefully everything turns out to be fun. insyaAllah i'll reach there safely and then come back home safely..

oh yah. on 21st, ROMANS (orientation group) having a chalet! at pasir ris! so exciting!! hopefully before the bbq, i can go out with my bestest gfs! =DDD ok will post photos of many different days and events soon! plus the indon picts! wish me luck! bye singapore!

report to Millennia Institute at 7.30am tmr.

yupp, i got posted to MI. although its my first choice and im glad i got it, im not really like excited about it. maybe im just scared of the whole entering a new school and meeting new friends thing ah. but the fact that i could be the only exbpian who gets into MI really freaks me out. cause then i'll be labelled THE BPIAN WHO COULDNT GO JC. haisss.. kk im too nervous to continue blogging now. im waiting for a call from MI. they will call right? they better do ah. im like a lost 4 year old who's going to her first nursery class.

i got punk'd!!

i got punk'd by baba! hahahahah! not that this is the first time. but i really didnt expect this from my father ah.. or fathers in general. hahaha! i cant stop laughing! oh but because of this, i finally saw baba's full set on dentures while in his mouth. hahha! kk it started on monday. it was like 1am and i was watching tv. then i got a forwarded msg from baba:

This sms is from BPGHS. Fly Back on 3 Feb 09.

Students to report to Teck Whye campus by 1900hrs.

Attire is halloween, twilight or vamp, must be in black.

Students will be dismissed from Choa Chu Kang campus at 1230hrs. TQ

haha k umm on 2 Jan, bpghs had a little event. MARCH BACK from the teck whye campus to the new cck campus. alumni invited too. so my father received a msg frm sch, a msg like the one above. same format, even the TQ at the end. then he forwarded it to me.

so on monday, he's been sleeping since he got home at about 5pm. so i assumed he got up to pray when he read the msg then forwarded it to me. this is very typical of him.. then this afternoon, i talked about it with my family ah. my sis suggested that i go there as Bella from Twilight. HAHA! and my mom was like "you dont go and buy clothes just for this event eh. just wear whatever black thing you have" i was quite excited bout it ah.. LOL. so excited that i overlooked the clues that were screaming "this is a prank!"

1st clue: NONE OF MY FRIENDS RECEIVED THAT SMS. i was so stupid to think that they WILL get the sms soon.

2nd clue: WE ALREADY MOVED TO THE NEW CAMPUS. why the hell would the school make us celebrate whatever it was i thought the school was celebrating by walking from teck whye campus to cck campus?!

3rd clue: FLY BACK?!?! when i first told wani, she laughed at that name. haishh. i must really need a reason to go back to sch so that i can give Mrs Wong a thank you letter.

and god knows there were many more clues which i stupidly ignored. hahahahaha! k so while discussing what i should wear, baba came home from friday prayers. i havent asked him whether i could go, so i asked. then he started laughing. (thats when the dentures part come in. wuahaha!) then he asked me "your school really got that event ah? you wanna go, you go lah yourself" then laughed like hell ah that man! haish.. soooo thats when poor amirah finally realised her feelings have been cheated and that her dad just made that Fly Back up. hahhahahaha!! seriously ah. getting punk'd this way by my father didnt cross my mind at all ah. but thing is, i actually already told many people bout it ah.. paiseh sak. i even told shao hua. haissss.....

haha anyway these are some photos i took on March Back. a real event that took place on 2 Jan and appeared on the newspaper sometime later.

the school is daaamn colourful ah

the library is bigger and has flat screen computers

somewhere like a rooftop balcony

mama's 42nd birthday! =)

after class last night, kak nana bought a cake and a famous amos cookie with a 'happy birthday' sticker on it. us sisters wanted to surprise our mom with a mini birthday celebration at 12am. and we did.. lit up the candles, went into my parent's room and woke them up with a birthday song..

hahaha our sleepy and basi faces. but the cake was damn nice! just look at the many layers of decadent chocolate somethings. one of the layers is choc waffle biscuit.. =DDD daamn nice! nicer than the secret recipe choc cake which costs so much more..

so anyway, mama loved it all and she was very very happy.. but too bad her gifts are all chocolatey and have a high sugar content. she's been trying to lose weight and we are not helping.. hahaha! but whatever, its your birthday! so HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY MAMA! I LOVE YOU!

the four of us.

went out with my favourite ladies yesterday! :DDD been quite a while since i last went out with them like this. expecially diy. k so first wani came to my house then we both met yda at T-REX (haha!) to have our lunch. couldnt finish our rojak mamak so got it packed and went to peninsula plaza to meet diy.

at penin, diy bought a tee. and while looking for it, she had fun lah laughing at every XXXXXXXXL stuff.. damn you! hahahaha! then yda bought 2 blouses from this fashion. and that shop, my goodness ah. no offence to cny songs but the songs they were playing.... seriously ah. it was hard work ignoring them.. especially cause the place was crowded and not well ventilated. even diy couldnt make fun of it for too long.

hahah but they loved making fun of my 'china boy' hair.

so got out of that chaos and went to esplanade rooftop~~ honestly, that was my first time up there. really liked it at first. super breezy and relaxing. but after what happened, i think i will never go there again. k so it was already dark when we reached esplanade. we sat and talk and took loads of pictures and ate packed rojak. it was damn fun ah. i love them so much. THEN. our dear diy decided to end girl talk and attempted her version of parkour on the rooftop of esplanade. AND SPOTTED A COCKROACH. wthhh! i seriously cant stand those brown creatures!

so we wanted to clean up and leave. i was gonna put my bottle in my plastic bag when I SAW A DARK BROWN THING WITH 6 LEGS RIGHT THERE, less than a metre away from my face!!!! ape lagi! bag ke mane, aku ke mane! wani said i screamed twice! but they didnt believe me, said i was hallucinating. then it was diy's turn. she saw it too.. i was like running out of that place by the time.. and guess what. I FUCKING STEPPED ON ANOTHER ONE WHILE RUNNING.

damn traumatising.. i think everyone at esplanade, even in the theatre, could hear me screaming. hahahaha! even the cleaning nyonya followed us into the toilet because she thought we were those trouble maker type. which we werent and diy wasnt happy about it. so she proved the nyonya right.. did something with the toilet paper machine.. HAHAHAH!

before my traumatic cockroach encounter.

here's to you.

you make me wish sarah didnt change seat that day so that i wouldnt have talked to you. you make me wish i hadnt been in the same school with you at all so that i wouldnt know you. but now that i do, you make me wish i were an evil bitch so that i wouldnt give a damn about you.

but i just wanna know something. why? why did you do this? because even after four years of friendship and believing that i do know you well enough, i just cant figure out why.. was it lack of attention from your family? lack of attention from your friends? was it peer pressure? was it bad influence? was it stress? or were they just bad choices? just honest mistakes, one after another? did you not know better? were you not taught better? maybe were you forced to do it? and you hate this as much as i do?

or you dont? did you like it? was it really just for fun? and that you DO know better? is this what you call experience? are you just fooling around? trying things out? did you know it was wrong but just didnt care? did you know the consequences but just didnt care? did you think you can just get away with it? do you think He'll just forgive your sins? did you think noone will be affected by your impulsive decisions? did you honestly think noone will get hurt? or does it not matter as long as YOU'RE not the one who gets hurt? did you not consider you parents' feelings? your family? your friends? YOUR FRIEND.

now do you regret telling me everything? do you think im just making a big fuss out of it? that im not FUN like you? are you gonna tell me its just something i'll never understand until it happens to me? are you gonna tell me it may look really really bad but its only because i don't know the other side of the story? are you gonna tell me i just wont get it? that its complicated but you know what you're doing? that you're not stupid and that you're careful enough to not let anyone hurt you? that you're a big girl now and you can take care of yourself? that you DO know your limits? then when i tell you you're wrong, are you gonna tell me that i should mind my own business? that its your life so you're free to do whatever you want? that you really just do know what you're doing?

because i need to know. you owe me that much.

if this is what it means to supposedly be thin and beautiful, i dont mind staying how i am now.

but if you really think you're not wrong, and you dont care what i think or WHAT IS RIGHT.. then so be it. i tried. i just pray that He will forgive you and show you the right path.. insyaAllah..